HEARTfelt

This Valentine's day isn't one to go down in the history books. We didn't do anything too exciting or have anything planned due to the fact that I was scheduled to work Friday and Saturday night.

When I got home Saturday morning, I had heart shaped waffles waiting for me that Justin and the boys had made. The boys were so excited to give me this simple gift for Valentines day and help make my day special. I feel bad that all I did was sleep and not much was planned for them, but don't feel too bad for us, we are planning to have a super fun day on Monday and celebrate a belated V-day because there is NO SCHOOL and NO WORK for anyone. YAY!

I also realized that my year has ended for my gratitude journal. Although I have not been very diligent the last couple weeks, this exercise really helped me put things in perspective for me. As I was reading through the entries, the things I was grateful for became more and more meaningful and there were definate common themes throughout many of the posts. My boys, my family, the gospel, good values, diet coke, and my hubby.

I feel that Justin gets lost in the hustle and bustle of my everyday life and sometimes it can feel that we are roommates rather than husband and wife. It is hard to even have a simple conversation let alone have a regular date night with the crazy schedules not only Justin and I have but the boys' as well. There are multiple conversations going on at the dinner table at the same time and if there are not conversations there is screaming, fighting, laughing, crying, or some other sort of noise going on that requires our attention away from each other. I love my boys so much and would and will do anything in the world for them, but Justin is the one who came first. He is my love, my sweetheart, my best friend. I still get butterflies when I see him and when he is all dressed up and smelling amazing I want to attack him. *purrrrr* Babe, I just want you to know that I still choose you first, I love you dearly and am grateful we have eternity to be together.

I know of some people who have a word or a phrase they concentrate on during a year to help them complete goals or become a better person. I like this idea and am officially implementing this now. I figure because of my gratitude journal my catch phrase last year was GRATITUDE. Making myself list things I am grateful for everyday shifted my priorities to what is really important in life. This year our word is FOCUS. FOCUS on what is really important. We are going to introduce our word for FHE on Monday night and I hope to post things this year that will help me FOCUS on my family, how to be a wonderful wife and mother, the gospel, and how to be more like the Savior. It is a long journey but baby steps will get me where I need to be. I just will have to FOCUS.